THE DREAM ZONE |
with Lauri Quinn Loewenberg
I dreamt I got a phone call from the doctor saying my son, who is 19, had untreatable cancer. I then remember going around with my son, getting his affairs in order. I woke up shaking and crying. I have not been able to get if off of my mind.
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I wish to find some peace in my heart. What person doesn't? Unfortunately, what I find in this world offers me no peace. I find the world offers only chaos, corruption and defeat for those who believe in a simple and clean life. I detest being a contributor to this modern world, and often feel overwhelmed by the rampant stupidity of the sheep-like general populace. I rarely find enjoyment in conversation with anyone anymore, not understanding many aspects of life in this world. I fear I have been brought into the wrong century. I no longer understand what my life is meant to be—and honestly, I am eager for the day nature takes her planet back from the humans who abuse it. I am ashamed of my nation and my part of being in it.
I would welcome death, but I feel it's not yet time. There is still something I must do, but I have no clue what it is or where I should find it. I fear that all I've witnessed in this life has closed me to what I am supposed to be doing. Granted, the closing is self-imposed, but to open myself back to the blatant greed and manipulation I encounter almost daily would seriously impair my ability to function even somewhat "normally." I long for the day when "honor" was more than merely another word. I feel like an outcast in a world full of outcasts. Ah, hellfire.
If it should help any, I was born July 5, 1960 at 7:23 p.m. Several years back I went to a palmist, and after she looked at my hands, she refused to read them. I have been to the Psychic Eye, and have been turned away. I have been to a tarot reader who walked out in the middle of my read. I have tried several religions and found them unworthy. I have never been to a therapist, but I think it unlikely one would truly understand or be able to offer sensible direction. They would have had to accept this world to become a therapist—and now that I think further, so would you. But still, there is something in what you've written somewhere that has incited me to do this, so I will complete it and send.
Dear Thought I'd Ask,
It's very important that you learn to take your second impressions of people, places, and situations, instead of your first. Yes, in other lifetimes things were much more defined—no gray areas. However, in this lifetime for you, simple is difficult. You are impatient with people not as smart as you, and I feel you've only relied on pure logic and reason in this lifetime instead of your spiritual, intuitive gifts.
Also, there is a strong connection with politics and you have a gift for relaying the ridiculous with a wonderfully acerbic wit. I think the reason you got those reactions from other psychics is that you're a very focused, bottom-line person and you don't like bullshit from anyone. You're a seeker of your own truth. You know as well as I that you can only figure that out for yourself. I recognize how much happier you'd be if the "rules" were the same for everyone, not just a select few. There are three things I feel compelled to tell you:
1. There is a light-haired woman who will be significant to you in the next 10 months.
2. Coincidental meetings are very fortunate through October.
3. Be a little more open to ideas that are different than yours (you don't have to act like you agree) and allow yourself to consider them a little further than you normally would.
I think it's interesting that even as you're asking for my insight, you were also testing to see if I would become offended. Once someone can get past your initial, intense first impression, you make more sense about things than most people. My favorite personal affirmation is: "Love beyond the rules of this world," because it is only love that can break through those rules.
Mona Van Joseph is a licensed professional in the psychic arts through the city of Las Vegas. Her live, local radio show, "Psychic Views," airs 10 a.m. Saturdays on Hot Talk 1140-AM, and she appears Thursdays at 7:45 a.m. on Fox-5 News. E-mail questions to [email protected].